Try

The flesh is so weak
The heart is so fragile
Time is so fleeting
on the edge we stand
looking for answers
we threaten to jump
scared of the future
tethered to the past
Leading us blindly
still holding my hand
inside we're burning
don't dare make a stand
Forgive me now Father
for I think I've sinned
don't know the reason
but I'd do it again
Still seeking knowledge
from the pages of old
no one knows the writer
yet billions are sold
So follow him blindly
and don't ask again
you're future is written
so why even try.


~Jason

The Battle

Inside you lies the undefined
Surrounded by the fear of myth and legend.
Clenched fists can rage against the flow
But time will suffer no loss in the end.

The winds of change will blow only on the exposed
So that which is hidden will always be.
The burdon of knowing what rages inside
So find the calm in setting it free.

Rage against the night for the day told you to.
Then hide away the light so the darkness will never see.
Inside the two are fighting
But it is you that should set them free.

Break the gates that hold the heavens
and loose the wrath of hell's gate
The hounds and angels fight each other
epic battles of love and hate.

As sure as the three kings will follow the stars
to see the Sun rise again.
The war will rage between the two
Forcing the sinners to sin

And in the dust of the final battle
new life will begin to grow.
Within ourselves we had hidden away.
The balance that we needed to know.
~JS 2014

Freedom

Let me heal your broken wings and show you the sky.
Come dance with me across the night.
We have no boundaries and no where to be
So we sing and dance with everything.

The heart is a liar and the soul is confused
can't find clarity inside this tomb.
So open the doors and tear down the walls
This life you see is just the womb.

Explore with me what time has forgotten
and learn from the ones who no longer speak.
Their knowledge is older than the earth itself
we can learn from what is unknowable to seek.

So let the soul dance naked and free.
set the stars as your ultimate goal.
Open your mind and see the truth
and freedom is yours where ever you go.

JS 2014

Take my Breath

Will you stand on the edge of perception and gleam into madness.
Turn the known inside out and throw it to the unknown.
Will you brave the emotions you fear the most
in order to say that in the darkness your light was your own.

Step inside that which you fear and learn to love.
Release your grip you think you have on what you thought your knew.
Let love in, bask in it, revel in it, understand you don't own it.
Now give it away to the universe and watch it fly from you.

In these moments we are everything there is to be
We are love and hate,  life and death
full of emotion in a moment we never saw coming.
These are the rare and powerful moments that take our breath.

MOTHER

I could write words down on paper
Sing them to the stars,
they are but reflections of the heart.
I could paint a song of love
and dance across the universe,
that is but a reflection of the soul.
I could carve a statue of honor
and display it to the world.
That is but a grasp for the moment.
Nothing written, sung, or displayed
could ever show the love
found in the heart of a child to his mother.
Happy mothers Day.

~J
05/11/14

Wanting More

Who are we when love-struck
In that moment are we not living in the past
Gleaming hope from the reflection of a spark?
Or are we boldly standing strong it the eyes of fear
and knowing that no matter what happens,
no matter what comes, we are tied to this moment, this feeling.
We want to capture time in a bottle.
Eternity in a picture or the world in a song.
To feel the heart race, the blood flow, the desire build.
We want it all and for that moment, that second in time we stand frozen.
Glued to the biological, uncontrollable urge to control love.
To bottle the moment and have it forever.
it is the medicine, the one true drug that we crave.
It is that one moment that excites us and terrifies us and leaves us,
wanting more.

 ~J

Pieces and Fragments

I have written these words 100 times only to erase them just the same.
I cannot seem to fit them together no matter how I pick them up.
Pieces and fragments laying around like pictures scattered on the floor
Maybe they were never meant to fit together as I choose.
Where are the missing pieces of this story I write?
Like a detective I stare at the story looking for patterns
hoping to find the one magical piece to bring it all together.
Each moment like a wave traveling across the ocean.
Slow and steadily reaching it's destination and crashing.
I can see it receed back into the waters of my thought.
Fading away as the next spills upon my shores.
And still the words do not fit together in any way.
The thoughts that crash seem random and without direction.
My thoughts now weary and tattered like a worn flag.
I put my sail in the wind and explore the very thoughts I watch.
Hoping that finding the origin will give me some answers.
Eye to the horizon where the stars meet the water.
Looking intently for what is not there.
It is only then, when I am alone with myself that I realize the truth.
I am not alone with myself at all during this voyage.
Below me the waters gently rock me but they are not my thoughts alone.
They are the thoughts of everyone.
The pieces that I thought were missing are the waves that I ignored.
The thoughts and emotions of everyone else.
The truth we all refuse to see is the simple fact
that you cannot put your life together without others.
Each peice you hold is a part of your life connected to someone else.
You cannot put it together without these pieces no more than
you can stop the waves.

~j
04/2014

Ghost

To live, share, and love
To dance, laugh and sing
I pull your words off the face of today
Holding them close to me

Painted with time and wear.
Shadows of what used to be.
Echoing from the past,
bring hope to what's inside me.

Somedays I hide away
to let it all sink in.
Understanding in silince
what the noise cannot bring.

It has been so long
since time took you away.
Your words no longer sing,
but in echoes across the day.

So silently I wait,
patiently I listen,
hopefully I share,
The ghost of the words you've written.

~Jason
03/2014

I Need Her

It is times like this that I need Her.
To feel and hear her
Have her touch me and in her silence refill me.
She seems so far and yet she is here.

I have let others disconnect us
No longer feeling the balance she offers
No longer filled with the love she brings
I only need a moment in it a lifetime.

The warmth in my soul is from her
The love in my heart the same.
But I have allowed the day to drain it.
Taken away by others not worthy

It is times like this…. I need her.

Searching for Balance in an Unbalanced World

As I look inward, the further out I go.
As I reach out, the more I understand what is in.
I write my story on a grain of sand and toss it into the sea.
Searching for balance in an unbalanced world
I hold my gaze to the stars.
Anchored in the universe,
Flowing with time.
I crash upon the shore
with peace, understanding, and unstoppable force.

Hiding inside

Inside me I hide

Where others dare not look

Between the stones I have collected

And the time which I placed them.

Thoughts grow like ivy around all that is me

Tying each to others and all.

Over grown memories wrapped in thorns.



I step lightly through the spaces

In between the roses and thorns.

Across the bridges burnt and rebuilt.

My shadow hides here as well.

Dancing with my ego in balanced movement.

Changing the landscape with each step.

Seeking release from its garden.



There is no way less through these hands

The pen, the pad, the paper

Crucifying the ego with words.

Bearing the soul and the wounds within.

Standing naked and exposed,

Breaking down that which holds me back.

That which hides inside.

    ~ JS

Restore

I sit quietly and listen to the whispers of the earth.
She speaks through the trees, across the oceans, and down the mountains.
Asking nothing but to move, flow, and be as it should be.
My soul rests quietly as She restores me to whole.

Here no stress can be found, no deadlines, traffic jams, or heartbreaks.
Only what is fresh, clean, and new will grace the vision of the beholder.
Time has no meaning here other than to be a marker for this moment.
My heart rests quietly as She restores me to whole.

Asking nothing I am given everything I need to move through myself.
Everything I see is part of me and I part of the everything.
What moves, so moves through me and I move like the waves steady and sure.
My spirit rests quietly as She restores me to whole.

So let not your eyes and ears deceive you with what man has brought.
Take everything deep in your soul and remember.
You are part of all I see, feel, experience, and know.
I rest quietly as you restore me to whole.

~Jason

Left Behind

In that moment you have gone.
Seems You left me here alone,
To find my path without your light.
Forever left to roam the night.

All the thoughts and dreams will fade
as the days they all turn grey.
How do I move forward now
when all that’s left if fear and doubt

As I fight for control
of the demons in my soul.
I will spread my wings and fly
and search for others in the night.

You took me up to heaven’s gate
and getting there we parted ways.
I know tomorrow I will wake
with nothing left for me to take.

With this hole inside my soul
I was wrong to think it cold.
So I fill it up with love
and understanding from above.

Hold my hand I’ll lead the way
down this path you are afraid.
I will keep you safe along your way
so you can shine when darkness fades.

Fill the emptiness in time,
memories left of you and I.
Showing others how to live
is all that I have left to give.

~J

Thank You for Dancing

Thank you for Dancing.




A cool breeze takes the leaf from the tree

and starts it on its ending path.

It does not know where it will end up

or how far it will get.

It just hurries along with the breeze.

Without fear or regret

it dances its final dance.

In the brief time it catches my eye

bringing peace to my thoughts

and allowing me to enjoy this beautiful day.

No matter how many plans you make

or what steps you take.

As the end draws in you are but a leaf on the wind.

So dance and live and know

that you are someone’s peaceful moment.

Thank You.

Far Away So Close

I stumble over words

as I try to write for you

I find the message foggy

but hold tight to the truth.

Far away so close you stay

but still the words they hide

to write the truth or bare the soul

fear stands by my side

To tell you that I see you

in my dreams and thoughts

Wish to hear you voice

through the music of the heart

Listen to the winds

That brings you by my side

and stare upon the stars

that glisten in your eyes.

Far away so close you stay

Close your eyes and see.

No matter where you wander

Inside I'll always be.

~J

You

Far away so close

Feel your heart and know

in Your soul I am

as you are with me.

Pain I fill with Love

Not empty but alive

Hold you in my heart

someday you shall see.

Let me take home

the dirt and wind and sea

and hear the answers come

from all the things that be.

Share with me your soul

Dream of me at night

when the Moon does sing

Dance with all your might.

j.s. 12/2013

Step out

As I watch the darkness slowly burn away.

Into the fire I step to claim another day.

Even though the thorns of roses break my skin

The blood and pain supports the beauty from within

I seek to know just why true love is so strong

but crumbles under doubt when everything goes wrong.

I cannot see the future I only know the past,

but from it I will build the monuments that last.

hold you way up high to feel the warmth and light.

know that when you can't see I will be your sight.

So walk on through this darkness until it burns away.

Then step out in to the beauty of another day.

~J

Return

We stand in our pride and self proclaimed integrity

a world built by us to suit us.

Never questioning where we came from or where we are going.

Fighting to be separate from the whole

but needing the whole to approve and praise

answering questions with speculations and fabricated truths

dividing, splitting, and battling

which way do you fall after the schism

pushing belief so hard on others

hoping we too will believe one day

in the end we return from where we came

back to the very thing we tried to split from

What do we pass on

 What are we passing on? Have you thought about it? What have you passed on to your children, your family, and friends? Have you passed your impulsive desire for new technology to your children? Have you taught them how to complain or maybe just teach them to live in their world and try to ignore the crazy stuff that goes on around them? Maybe drugs, have you taught them how a busy day or week deserves some drugs or a few drinks to relax? Looking forward to lunch and dinner as a break? Eating for relaxation or reward?

 Teaching them how to be racist, sexist, or judgmental is a popular thing as well. Pointing out short comings of others to make us feel better is something everyone needs to learn. Be sure to teach them how to complain about something but do nothing to change it because it is not your fault or problem.

 These seem to be popular things that people are learning and doing today but the real fear is what will it evolve to? Blaming others and doing nothing has already started evolving right before our eyes. We have given up so many freedoms to our government in hopes that they will take care of us, something we should have been doing all along. But that is another story/ argument in itself.

 I started thinking about my kids this morning and wondering, if there was just one thing I could get across to them what would it be? If I teach them nothing but this one thing what would it be? To love unconditionally, to live each day as it was their last, to look both ways before crossing the street, Or don’t step on legos. I cannot find an answer. Not really, because there is so much they need to know. So many things not taught in schools. Let’s face it, Schools basically teach crap. Half the stuff we are sticking in their brains does will not help them in life and yet we keep shoveling it in. Let’s teach them how to learn, to communicate, so think. Yes THINK we are not teaching them to think anymore.

 Sorry I seem to have gotten off track again, the one thing…. What would it be?
I think it would be to just live. Nothing lasts forever, not love, money, looks, cars, pets, or anything. Nothing lasts forever. So just live, enjoy them, immerse yourself in the moment and feel the emotions, then move on; live like the waves of the ocean. If someone or something strikes a blow at you, just move, then fill in the spaces, but never, never stop pushing forward.



J.

Release

My Soul is torn between good and evil

Which is which I cannot say

I fight the demons and fight the angels

the battle grows larger each day

A crowded soul

A lonely heat

A painful life

Being torn apart

Release me.



(Written 1994)
Jason Sandlin