Fragile Monolith

Did you see that? Did you see it happen?
The heavens opened up today as a flower split the mountain.
Truly magnificent it was as it's beauty came without doubt.
Pedals unfolding to greet the monolith with a prayer and song.

It bowed down only to rise up and the mountain made way, for it knew.
This fragile thing made so delicately of beauty
asked nothing but to sing in the breeze and share the Sun.
This was the base of the mountain and the soul of the earth.

JS

Timeless

Timeless, Boundless, ageless and formless
I see back past the veil of birth and death and see you.
I look forward past the same and again you stand.
Glowing like a star, a beacon in the cosmos.
You have always been and always will be.
Our bodies will decay and our world fade away
but I know that you will be there Waiting, Loving, Guiding.
We are not two beings in love but one being of love.
We are the flower and the flame both dancing in the wind.

JS

Who I am

We have all set out on this quest before.
Taking notes and kicking in doors but today I sat and looked within to figure out just who I am.

I close my eyes and take a breath.
I am the emotions that drive me
Love and compassion that is who I am
But can this be if doubt and frustration are emotions too.
I can't be love without being hate.
I can't be the slain without being the slayer. This can't be all of me

So I Take a breath
I feel the earth beneath me and the wind caress me.
This is me and all there is.
The flesh the blood the trees and mud.
The earth it breathes as do I
It lives and grows and suffers
This is who I am!
But this cannot be so.
The earth, the wind, the blood and skin
Are all just part of the whole.

So I take a breath
Now I see the universe and it vast expanse
Feel the energy and vibrations.
This is me.
I can see it now, the stars and planets
The black holes and never ending matter.
But this cannot be who I am can it.
Lifeless and full of life. Never ending
The bigger I get the smaller I feel.

And so I take a breath
A breath. A single breath.
In it I feel the emotion,  the breeze
The universe and everything.
The vibration of it all shakes me in a single breath. This is me, I am that breath.
Not the one I just took or the next one to come.
I am this breath right now.

And so I take a breath.
I am the point between breathes.
In that moment I see nothing.
I feel nothing
No vibrations, no expectations
I am the silence, the still. I am everything in one point of existence. 
The vibrations have slowed to a stillness.
In the single breath I breathe life and death, love and hate. I breath the trees and earth, sky and stars.
In that one breath a big bang of existence. I breath it all in.

And so I take a breath
I am.

~J

Deep Within

Deep within the seat i sink
The energy so bright and clear
Rising from the primal levels
Deliver me from all the fear .

Timeless journey through the hidden.
To the dark and back again.
Where it is has so been written
words of man fall short again.

Pray for peace and your salvation
from the enemy that hides.
Deep inside you are forsaken
Beaten by the egos pride.

Holy is the base of life
sacred place to all that see
Dance around the truth with words
that never seem to set you free.

I don't believe your words you give me
I don't believe this mess I see.
I can't help but think that man
has so much more in life to be.

Freedom comes from deep within
Liberation from all that binds
Letting go of all that holds you
brings me closer to life Devine.

Jason

Be Amazing

The Moon shines not but shows all.
blackness of space brings separation to the stars.
The Sun warms and lights my world
blue sky offer a soft backdrop for the creeping clouds

The wind unseen blows across me
air i breathe comes and goes across all that I see.
The grass growing unnoticed softens my step
Ground is ever producing life and energy

All of this goes on without your notice
giving us unseen hope and signs of life
All of this gives us but one message to pass on.
simple and honest and true to the source.

Be amazing, that is all
Be amazing noticed or not just keep being amazing
Life comes and goes, it's seen and unseen
loved and unloved. but through it all you stand.
So if you stand just be amazing.

~Jason 10/09/2015

Waterfall (Meditation)

As I sit, breath in today
For tomorrow never comes.
I can't help but feel this way
Knowing I'll always be the the one.

As I sit, exhale the pain
Watch it all just fade away
All this chaos I'm to blame
Need to let go of the grey.

And as I sit here
I know the reason
I know the flow of life today.
And it consumes me
Taking me over
Taking my mind so far away.

Bring me back
Back to my center
Back to the basic of it all.
Back to a time when
I had control then,
Back before the water falls

Breaking me down,
pulling me down.
Washing away me self control
Taking my breath,
spin me around.
Do not know which way to go.

And as I sit here
I know the reason
I know just what I have to do.
Now I am focused
lost in the nothing
Lost in the breath that all consumes

Bring me back
Back to my center
Back to the basic of it all
Back to a time when
I had control then,
Back before the waterfalls.

~
Jason 09/2015

Nothing

I want to be the nothing
That you don't see but know it's there.
The blank on the page or the hole in the wall
The useful part of a window

I want to be the nothing
Live and die unseen but forever in the heart
That warmth of the sun or the cool of the breeze.
The useful part of the burning wood

I want to be the nothing
In which you gaze in wonder for unknown reasons
The space between or the reflection of hope.
The breath you hold when love takes your heart.

I want to be.

~ Jason

That's the Way

I'll claw out my eyes today
 I want to see the world this way.
I'll tear out my heart today,
 everytime you walk away.
I can see the reason,
I can see the rhyme
 but I cannot understand just why this music can't be mine.

So I'll sing out the words today,
that's just what I need to say
I''ll dance with the earth today,
It taught me to move this way.
I don't know the meaning
 I don't have the time
I'll write my words across the sky
 hope that they will shine.

So I'll give out my love today
it was never mine to stay,
I'll let go of pain today ,
it was fiction anyway.
Dance across the moonlight
 singing to the wind.
The voices carry far and wide after life has spent.

So I'll live out my life today because that's the way
That's the way.

My Pen

My pen, and extension of me?
Does it simply transcribe the rattles of my mind?
Can it heal the sick or feed the hungry?
Can it find God or did it lose him altogether?
Will it raise me to be the a Buddha such as Jesus?
The ink simply flows from the pen to pad.
Just as the motion flows from brain to hand.
The cosmos is my playground such that I study the stars.
The light from so far away fires the cells in my brain.
So does my pen come from the flow in my brain
or is the starlight in the heavens that which ends up on my paper?

~Jason

Kiss the Sky

I want to kiss the sky,dance with the stars
livin in the middle of just who we are.
See the sun for just what it is,
play with my shadow like I was a kid.

Feel the rain as it soaks me through,
run through the woods with no clue.
ly in the grass and just wait on time,
knowing down inside that it's all just mine.

Hear the birds sing, listen to the chirping,
wasting away no caring about working.
Summer days and the nights come round.
Get me on the beach far away from the crowd.

Sing, dance, cry and laugh,
birth to death these moments will pass.
I will stand here taking it in
when it's all over lets do it again.

So kiss the sky and dance with the stars
Live in the middle of who you are.
Life is short, least that's what they say
maybe you're living it in the wrong way.

~Jason

Hold Me Tight

Holy Jesus
Did you see me sin?
Did you morn or cry when I did it again?
will tell your father it's not who I am?
Will you follow me down this path that I found.?

Oh sweet Jesus,
Why do I do what I do?
Follow the heart no matter how blue?
Am I scarred for life, beaten and through?
Will my wounds be forever a symbol like you?

Oh Mother Mary,
Your Son is with me,
Though I'm not really sure it's the best place to be.
My sins run deeper with each passing day.
For the lives that I save will never know pain.

Oh Dear God,
Could you take me from here?
I can't understand all the hate in the fear.
I try to stay holy but this can't be done.
for some of my sins just can't be out run.

Holy Jesus,
You held me tight.
Through all the hard morning and all the long nights.
When I cried in silence and screamed your name
You stood there silent and took all the blame.

Oh sweet Mother,
You son has come home
He stood the test of time and was never alone.
He faught with the demons and angels the same
But in the end he was cleaned in my name.

~ Jason 03/18/2015

Shadow

Through the eternal I have traveled.
Past the fallen, past the the face of time
Standing on the edge of what you left me
Needing all the hope just to survive

Leading me away, Taking me away
I cannot pass the shadow on my own.

The image on the hill is crucified
blood runs constant, never ending
Bathing in the life you left behind
Needing all you promised just to hide

Leading me to astray, taking all away
I cannot pass the Shadow on my own.

Reading of the truth in which you promised
words of fallen mortals, falling shallow
Riddles, myths, and legends written down
Needing all I see just to follow.

Leading me again, taking me again
I cannot pass this shadow on my own

Now I put the pieces back together
Fallen bloody words fit perfectly
Revealing what was hidden in plain sight
Needing to understand where you are

Leading me to truth, taking doubt away
I cannot pass this shadow for it is me.

God

Where can I find you where do you hide
I was raised to think you would be by my side.
I search through the books and written pages
But these are just ramblings of fools and of sages.

I search the mountains and valleys below
I can see the traces of places you go
But the animals won't answer not a hint they will share
So onward I search in hope and dispair.

The deepest of oceans and bluest of skys
the darkest of caves and blackest of night
Earth cannot hide you if you're there I will find
but the harder I look the more I am blind.

So doubt you I must for you cannot be seen
how can I trust this thing that can't be.
Love and compassion I hold in my heart
for others who I see on this journey they start.

So I lay here and stare at the stars as they shine.
Maybe someday myself I shall find.
So onward I spiral away from the source.
Following the path of natures force.

And there in the distance I see what could be
The truth that I seek to understand me.
Like the small to the large of the music to dance
or the infinite solvable equation of chance.

I see the hot to the cold and the truth to the lie
all of the outside balanced inside.
So large in it's size but too small to see.
Not part of the being but all I can see.

~Jason

21 and two

Let me take the time to see
two weeks in and you were gone
21 is all there is
two weeks in and I'm alone

Gather all the pieces left
save it in a box of hope
that one day they will fit again
21 was all I'll know.

Take away from all this
Show me how to let go
Help me know what love is
Counting all the years gone

21 just two weeks in.
21 my time was new
21 like yesterday
22 forever you.

Take away from all this
Show me how to let go
Help me know what love is
Learn to bring it back home.

Hold me up and guide me now
Take this weary soul of mine
Show me how to carry on
I can see there is no time

21 and dieing
21 and born again
21 and alive
21 and two weeks in.

~Jason Sandlin 2014

The Journey

I watch the Moonlight dance across the shadows
Giving life to the darkness showing the magic of night.
The hands of the clock steadly move across the face of time.
Making moments last forever and pass away just the same.

We are dust constructed in a magnificant play.
A drop of water in an ocean and an ocean in a drop.
We live a complex play of the simplest life.
Find love and happiness in darkness of doubt.

Hope is but a thought we no longer understand
Love but a goal we place out of reach.
We want someting to die for and die trying to find it.
We set our eyes on the horizon and over look the first step.

So take my hand and enjoy this dance of uncertainty.
Feel the wind, the sun the passion and love.
Shed your tears and share your smiles.
We will reach the horizon, the goals, the future.
But I promise when we are there you will miss the journey.

Try

The flesh is so weak
The heart is so fragile
Time is so fleeting
on the edge we stand
looking for answers
we threaten to jump
scared of the future
tethered to the past
Leading us blindly
still holding my hand
inside we're burning
don't dare make a stand
Forgive me now Father
for I think I've sinned
don't know the reason
but I'd do it again
Still seeking knowledge
from the pages of old
no one knows the writer
yet billions are sold
So follow him blindly
and don't ask again
you're future is written
so why even try.


~Jason

The Battle

Inside you lies the undefined
Surrounded by the fear of myth and legend.
Clenched fists can rage against the flow
But time will suffer no loss in the end.

The winds of change will blow only on the exposed
So that which is hidden will always be.
The burdon of knowing what rages inside
So find the calm in setting it free.

Rage against the night for the day told you to.
Then hide away the light so the darkness will never see.
Inside the two are fighting
But it is you that should set them free.

Break the gates that hold the heavens
and loose the wrath of hell's gate
The hounds and angels fight each other
epic battles of love and hate.

As sure as the three kings will follow the stars
to see the Sun rise again.
The war will rage between the two
Forcing the sinners to sin

And in the dust of the final battle
new life will begin to grow.
Within ourselves we had hidden away.
The balance that we needed to know.
~JS 2014

Freedom

Let me heal your broken wings and show you the sky.
Come dance with me across the night.
We have no boundaries and no where to be
So we sing and dance with everything.

The heart is a liar and the soul is confused
can't find clarity inside this tomb.
So open the doors and tear down the walls
This life you see is just the womb.

Explore with me what time has forgotten
and learn from the ones who no longer speak.
Their knowledge is older than the earth itself
we can learn from what is unknowable to seek.

So let the soul dance naked and free.
set the stars as your ultimate goal.
Open your mind and see the truth
and freedom is yours where ever you go.

JS 2014

Take my Breath

Will you stand on the edge of perception and gleam into madness.
Turn the known inside out and throw it to the unknown.
Will you brave the emotions you fear the most
in order to say that in the darkness your light was your own.

Step inside that which you fear and learn to love.
Release your grip you think you have on what you thought your knew.
Let love in, bask in it, revel in it, understand you don't own it.
Now give it away to the universe and watch it fly from you.

In these moments we are everything there is to be
We are love and hate,  life and death
full of emotion in a moment we never saw coming.
These are the rare and powerful moments that take our breath.

MOTHER

I could write words down on paper
Sing them to the stars,
they are but reflections of the heart.
I could paint a song of love
and dance across the universe,
that is but a reflection of the soul.
I could carve a statue of honor
and display it to the world.
That is but a grasp for the moment.
Nothing written, sung, or displayed
could ever show the love
found in the heart of a child to his mother.
Happy mothers Day.

~J
05/11/14