Thoughts

A night to ponder. I find my thoughts scattered and without direction. When the inside takes the outside down we are left with but one purpose. That purpose, that need, that moment of clarity we have searched for all our lives is revealed to us often times in a moment of despair or fear and yet we find it to be the simplistic, basic need we have. Hidden away in plain sight we have been taught to over look it.
 Stepping forward is easy, trusting in our own steps becomes the hard part. Overcoming our fears takes us to a whole new level of being. A level of understanding that cannot be explained or understood by others. We master what others can't, then we return to the beginning. Making the circle complete and bringing us back to the most basic of needs. Find your basic need, fill it with the soul of all that is around us, then pass it on.
 Learning from the knowledge of the wise ones is the best step. Sadly the true wise ones are few and far between. Pushed away and scorned by the ignorant with power.

Naked and Fearless

 I always thought I would remember and yet the memory is clouded. I search for clarity in the mist of the best excuses offered to me and yet they are no comfort. So I sit digging for scraps of the life I had, knowing that letting it go is the only path forward.  It is hard to let go when I keep picking at the scabs of the past hoping for a glimpse into known happiness.
 Of all the fears we have, being alone is the hardest to overcome. Am I afraid of losing your memory or navigating life without you.
 Sometimes our best show of true strength is baring our weaknesses. Showing the world who we are is not about showing great power but about standing naked in the crowd. Showing the world that compassion and love does hurt. It does leave scars and breaks you down.  For us to experience the greatest joys, we have to risk the greatest sorrows.

~J