God

Where can I find you where do you hide
I was raised to think you would be by my side.
I search through the books and written pages
But these are just ramblings of fools and of sages.

I search the mountains and valleys below
I can see the traces of places you go
But the animals won't answer not a hint they will share
So onward I search in hope and dispair.

The deepest of oceans and bluest of skys
the darkest of caves and blackest of night
Earth cannot hide you if you're there I will find
but the harder I look the more I am blind.

So doubt you I must for you cannot be seen
how can I trust this thing that can't be.
Love and compassion I hold in my heart
for others who I see on this journey they start.

So I lay here and stare at the stars as they shine.
Maybe someday myself I shall find.
So onward I spiral away from the source.
Following the path of natures force.

And there in the distance I see what could be
The truth that I seek to understand me.
Like the small to the large of the music to dance
or the infinite solvable equation of chance.

I see the hot to the cold and the truth to the lie
all of the outside balanced inside.
So large in it's size but too small to see.
Not part of the being but all I can see.

~Jason

21 and two

Let me take the time to see
two weeks in and you were gone
21 is all there is
two weeks in and I'm alone

Gather all the pieces left
save it in a box of hope
that one day they will fit again
21 was all I'll know.

Take away from all this
Show me how to let go
Help me know what love is
Counting all the years gone

21 just two weeks in.
21 my time was new
21 like yesterday
22 forever you.

Take away from all this
Show me how to let go
Help me know what love is
Learn to bring it back home.

Hold me up and guide me now
Take this weary soul of mine
Show me how to carry on
I can see there is no time

21 and dieing
21 and born again
21 and alive
21 and two weeks in.

~Jason Sandlin 2014

The Journey

I watch the Moonlight dance across the shadows
Giving life to the darkness showing the magic of night.
The hands of the clock steadly move across the face of time.
Making moments last forever and pass away just the same.

We are dust constructed in a magnificant play.
A drop of water in an ocean and an ocean in a drop.
We live a complex play of the simplest life.
Find love and happiness in darkness of doubt.

Hope is but a thought we no longer understand
Love but a goal we place out of reach.
We want someting to die for and die trying to find it.
We set our eyes on the horizon and over look the first step.

So take my hand and enjoy this dance of uncertainty.
Feel the wind, the sun the passion and love.
Shed your tears and share your smiles.
We will reach the horizon, the goals, the future.
But I promise when we are there you will miss the journey.

Try

The flesh is so weak
The heart is so fragile
Time is so fleeting
on the edge we stand
looking for answers
we threaten to jump
scared of the future
tethered to the past
Leading us blindly
still holding my hand
inside we're burning
don't dare make a stand
Forgive me now Father
for I think I've sinned
don't know the reason
but I'd do it again
Still seeking knowledge
from the pages of old
no one knows the writer
yet billions are sold
So follow him blindly
and don't ask again
you're future is written
so why even try.


~Jason

The Battle

Inside you lies the undefined
Surrounded by the fear of myth and legend.
Clenched fists can rage against the flow
But time will suffer no loss in the end.

The winds of change will blow only on the exposed
So that which is hidden will always be.
The burdon of knowing what rages inside
So find the calm in setting it free.

Rage against the night for the day told you to.
Then hide away the light so the darkness will never see.
Inside the two are fighting
But it is you that should set them free.

Break the gates that hold the heavens
and loose the wrath of hell's gate
The hounds and angels fight each other
epic battles of love and hate.

As sure as the three kings will follow the stars
to see the Sun rise again.
The war will rage between the two
Forcing the sinners to sin

And in the dust of the final battle
new life will begin to grow.
Within ourselves we had hidden away.
The balance that we needed to know.
~JS 2014

Freedom

Let me heal your broken wings and show you the sky.
Come dance with me across the night.
We have no boundaries and no where to be
So we sing and dance with everything.

The heart is a liar and the soul is confused
can't find clarity inside this tomb.
So open the doors and tear down the walls
This life you see is just the womb.

Explore with me what time has forgotten
and learn from the ones who no longer speak.
Their knowledge is older than the earth itself
we can learn from what is unknowable to seek.

So let the soul dance naked and free.
set the stars as your ultimate goal.
Open your mind and see the truth
and freedom is yours where ever you go.

JS 2014

Take my Breath

Will you stand on the edge of perception and gleam into madness.
Turn the known inside out and throw it to the unknown.
Will you brave the emotions you fear the most
in order to say that in the darkness your light was your own.

Step inside that which you fear and learn to love.
Release your grip you think you have on what you thought your knew.
Let love in, bask in it, revel in it, understand you don't own it.
Now give it away to the universe and watch it fly from you.

In these moments we are everything there is to be
We are love and hate,  life and death
full of emotion in a moment we never saw coming.
These are the rare and powerful moments that take our breath.

MOTHER

I could write words down on paper
Sing them to the stars,
they are but reflections of the heart.
I could paint a song of love
and dance across the universe,
that is but a reflection of the soul.
I could carve a statue of honor
and display it to the world.
That is but a grasp for the moment.
Nothing written, sung, or displayed
could ever show the love
found in the heart of a child to his mother.
Happy mothers Day.

~J
05/11/14

Wanting More

Who are we when love-struck
In that moment are we not living in the past
Gleaming hope from the reflection of a spark?
Or are we boldly standing strong it the eyes of fear
and knowing that no matter what happens,
no matter what comes, we are tied to this moment, this feeling.
We want to capture time in a bottle.
Eternity in a picture or the world in a song.
To feel the heart race, the blood flow, the desire build.
We want it all and for that moment, that second in time we stand frozen.
Glued to the biological, uncontrollable urge to control love.
To bottle the moment and have it forever.
it is the medicine, the one true drug that we crave.
It is that one moment that excites us and terrifies us and leaves us,
wanting more.

 ~J

Pieces and Fragments

I have written these words 100 times only to erase them just the same.
I cannot seem to fit them together no matter how I pick them up.
Pieces and fragments laying around like pictures scattered on the floor
Maybe they were never meant to fit together as I choose.
Where are the missing pieces of this story I write?
Like a detective I stare at the story looking for patterns
hoping to find the one magical piece to bring it all together.
Each moment like a wave traveling across the ocean.
Slow and steadily reaching it's destination and crashing.
I can see it receed back into the waters of my thought.
Fading away as the next spills upon my shores.
And still the words do not fit together in any way.
The thoughts that crash seem random and without direction.
My thoughts now weary and tattered like a worn flag.
I put my sail in the wind and explore the very thoughts I watch.
Hoping that finding the origin will give me some answers.
Eye to the horizon where the stars meet the water.
Looking intently for what is not there.
It is only then, when I am alone with myself that I realize the truth.
I am not alone with myself at all during this voyage.
Below me the waters gently rock me but they are not my thoughts alone.
They are the thoughts of everyone.
The pieces that I thought were missing are the waves that I ignored.
The thoughts and emotions of everyone else.
The truth we all refuse to see is the simple fact
that you cannot put your life together without others.
Each peice you hold is a part of your life connected to someone else.
You cannot put it together without these pieces no more than
you can stop the waves.

~j
04/2014

Ghost

To live, share, and love
To dance, laugh and sing
I pull your words off the face of today
Holding them close to me

Painted with time and wear.
Shadows of what used to be.
Echoing from the past,
bring hope to what's inside me.

Somedays I hide away
to let it all sink in.
Understanding in silince
what the noise cannot bring.

It has been so long
since time took you away.
Your words no longer sing,
but in echoes across the day.

So silently I wait,
patiently I listen,
hopefully I share,
The ghost of the words you've written.

~Jason
03/2014

I Need Her

It is times like this that I need Her.
To feel and hear her
Have her touch me and in her silence refill me.
She seems so far and yet she is here.

I have let others disconnect us
No longer feeling the balance she offers
No longer filled with the love she brings
I only need a moment in it a lifetime.

The warmth in my soul is from her
The love in my heart the same.
But I have allowed the day to drain it.
Taken away by others not worthy

It is times like this…. I need her.

Searching for Balance in an Unbalanced World

As I look inward, the further out I go.
As I reach out, the more I understand what is in.
I write my story on a grain of sand and toss it into the sea.
Searching for balance in an unbalanced world
I hold my gaze to the stars.
Anchored in the universe,
Flowing with time.
I crash upon the shore
with peace, understanding, and unstoppable force.

Hiding inside

Inside me I hide

Where others dare not look

Between the stones I have collected

And the time which I placed them.

Thoughts grow like ivy around all that is me

Tying each to others and all.

Over grown memories wrapped in thorns.



I step lightly through the spaces

In between the roses and thorns.

Across the bridges burnt and rebuilt.

My shadow hides here as well.

Dancing with my ego in balanced movement.

Changing the landscape with each step.

Seeking release from its garden.



There is no way less through these hands

The pen, the pad, the paper

Crucifying the ego with words.

Bearing the soul and the wounds within.

Standing naked and exposed,

Breaking down that which holds me back.

That which hides inside.

    ~ JS